Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Week in Review and Looking Forward

How did I do this week....

  • I will lose 3” from my total body measurements from this morning. I lost 1.25",  That was about 42% of my goal
  • I will take my vitamins daily.  I took them 5 out of 7 days for a percent of 71%.  I think 70% is successful.
  • I will exercise for 180 minutes.  I did not log minutes.  I know I did 90...
  • I will log my food for 5 days.  I did not log food either. 
I can't say that I tried terribly hard this week.  There are a few things that happened this week that I think are positive for my journey to be healthy.  

The biggest thing that I think is a big step in the right direction for me is that I started 5K training again.  I have committed to myself to not take any shortcuts this time around.  I am committing to myself that I will continue to run races to keep myself going.  I felt really good about my first run.  The route I took was the perfect distance for the time.  I started and ended at the door to our townhouse.  I rocked the second run.  I ran the same route and had to go around my block 1 more time.


I had two other things come to fruition for me.  One was inspiration I get from various sources.  Friends, family, and blogs to name a few.  I have friends who inspire me by doing and friends and family who inspire me by believing in me.  Belief in me a HUGE inspiration and motivation.  I had a friend run a marathon this week end.  She ran 26.2 miles.  You can read her re-cap here: http://motivationalmom2.blogspot.com/.  3 1/2 years ago she was miserable from being overweight and today (well this week), she is running freaking marathons.  


The second part of this motivation comes from trying to break down the walls I have built around myself that inhibit me from sticking with my goals.  I don't really know what they are, but they are there.  I can feel them.  Biggest Loser watchers know what I am talking about.  The most successful contestants seem to have this break through on the show.  This breakdown is something I have been yearning for.  The feeling of pain to get me to heal.  One of the trainers even said that this week to one of the contestants.  I believe there is so much truth there.  Until I can deal with my demons I don't think I can properly heal into a healthy person.  The next steps in my journey is to figure out what these demons are and how to overcome them.  What can I do to bring the old April back and "feel the fear and do it anyway" and "dance like no one is watching".


With this new outlook comes new goals.
  • I will journal on paper or on this blog 3 more times this week.  The goal of this journalling is to overcome what is holding me back.   
  • I will create a list of 10 positive things that happen to me this week.
  • I will stick to the C25K training plan of 3 running sessions and 3 other work out sessions.
  • I will take my vitamins everyday.

3 comments:

  1. Maybe you need to stop trying to find the old April and find the NEW and IMPROVED April. I think that kind of confuses us because we can never be who we used to be. Things change, we change. You will never be who you used to be in college. However, you can be the best you can be with who you are now. I hope this didn't confuse you. I know what I want to say, but it doesn't always come out right.

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  2. You may be onto something. I was looking to reach back into my childhood and high school years too. There are pieces of me from back then that I thought were great. I know things can't be like they were then, because I am an adult with responsibilities, a husband, children, and a dog. I believe that some of those pieces are still apart of who I am to the core. Maybe I should focus on picking up those pieces and melding them with new ones.

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  3. April,
    I so get what you are saying! I see it all the time on Biggest Loser. Our demons run deeper than we know. Like Jillian always said it's not about the food. Everything is mental. I think we all long for how we felt in our youth but like you and Anonymous said things change we have more stress and responsibility. I just want you to know that YOU inspire and motivate me! I look forward to your blogs and celebrating your successes and supporting you! You go girl!

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