I am stuck. I feel like I am stuck with my lifestyle like getting stuck in the snow with my car. I try to rock back and forth with hope to get out, but now I am not sure if I am in too deep. I am in a rut right now where I where I am struggling with motivation and willpower. I am looking for the kick to get me out. I am also experiencing some confusing thoughts in regards to diet.
A few weeks ago I met with an endocrinologist. He told me he wanted me to diet, track calories, blah, blah blah. I never have had a doctor tell me that before. I left so frustrated, but I can't get his words off my mind. He seemed fixated on the fact that I have difficulty losing weight. I discussed so many more symptoms that were equally if not more concerning and that is the one he gets hung up on. Douche. Regardless of my personal opinion of him, I am frustrated with it.
I do not think dieting is the answer. The answer to me is lifestyle change. I even asked..."what happens when I reach my goal weight or go off the diet?" I know the answer, but I can't get over the dumbfounded look on his face. He was so surprised that I asked that.
When I started this post, I was struggling with taking the plunge and going on a diet. I think I need something more structure and discipline. I feel that I am lacking the discipline. I want to be told what to do what to eat. Tonight, I got really frustrated with trying to create my shopping list for the week. I really really really want to get back into meal planning, but all the sudden I feel like I don't have the tools to do that. I looked up recipes and still felt lost. It didn't help that nothing really sounded good at the time. UGH. It could be that I am so congested that I can't think straight.
So, I am stuck with wondering what to do next. I am intrigued by two diet plans. Both have a monetary investment. Or is there someone out there willing to meal plan for me? If so, note I am a flexatarian who hates celery. I will not touch any form of it to my lips.